I’ve felt so weird all day, a little empty and confused. At first I thought not to write about this on the blog, but I think I will anyway, at shortly as I can. It’s been on my mind these last few days more and more, and today I can finally put it behind. At the beginning of August, when I had that appendix operation, I heard that something unusual was found in my ultra pictures. Not knowing is the worst thing, and when it comes to your health, it can’t get any worse. Today finally after almost eight weeks of waiting I finally had a doctor’s appointment, the test results had come. Everything was fine. Thank god. Some tests are still going to be made, but everything is fine, that is sure now. That rare thing, whatever it is, will not affect on my life. Weird though that I still don’t know what to think, feels wrong to feel relieved, when you actually realize not everyone can hear the same news. It could have been something serious, and something serious happens there daily, it’s part of life. And I hate that.
But just one thing to end this not so light post: if you aren’t living your life the way you want to yet, or you are not letting yourself to be fully happy because of something stupid, just stop. Life is now.
PS, Thank you for the many lovely comments on the home post, I probably have to start doing more decor posts! ♥
Ollut outo fiilis koko päivän. Ajattelin alkuun olla kirjoittamatta tästä blogissa mitään, mutta kirjoitanpa nyt kuitenkin, niin lyhyesti kuin pystyn. Mulla on pyörinyt yksi juttu viime aikoina yhä enemmän mielessä, ja tänään vihdoin voin laittaa sen taakseni. Elokuun alussa, kun mulla oli se umpparileikkaus, nähtiin ultrakuvissa jotain epätavallista. Tietämättömyys on kauheaa, ja jos tuo vielä liittyy terveyteen, niin ei kauheammaksi voi paljoa mennä. Tänään vihdoin kahdeksan viikon odotuksen jälkeen oli lääkärin tapaaminen, kun kaikki koetulokset olivat tulleet. Kaikki arvot hyviä. Luojan kiitos. Vielä yksi tutkimus edessä, mutta tuo harvinainen juttu mikä onkaan, tuskin vaikuttaa elämääni millään tapaa, eikä sen taustalla ole mitään. En silti osaa olla täysin helpottunut, tuntuu väärältä, kun niin moni joutuu kuulemaan erilaisia uutisia. Se olisi voinut olla vakavaa, kaiken tuon ajattelu tuntuu raskaalta. Se on osa elämää, mutta mä inhoan sitä, miksi sen pitää olla.
Mutta pieni juttu vielä tämän ei niin kevyen postauksen loppuun: mikäli et elä elämääsi juuri niin kuin haluaisit, tai et anna itsesi olla täysin onnellinen, niin stop. Elämä on tässä ja nyt!
PS, Kiitos ihanista kommenteista tuohon kotipostaukseen, kotijuttuja täytyy varmaan tehdä jatkossa enemmän! ♥
Pictures: Janita Autio
Sunnies Karen Walker
Jacket Levi’s
Dress Brandy Melville
Heels AllSaints
Jewelry Marianna for Stilnest
Deborah says
Loveeeed this look! And omg im so sorry u had to go through all of this, so scary 🙁 I cant imagine the anxiety of waiting for results! It’s the worst feeling not knowing. Im so glad you are ok ♥! And yes I agree, life is now and we should do everything in our power to be happy today. Xo
With Or Without Shoes says
Love the casual touch of the jacket!
Don’t miss today on the blog my Urban-chic outfit with new denim culottes, a very feminine asymmetrical top and a pair of sandals that drive me crazy ! 😉
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Natali says
Great to read that you got the positive news on your tests, health is such a delicate thing and to be healthy is such a blessing. Just like you said, not everybody gets to hear positive news after they run the tests but you do have all the right to feel relieved and happy that you are fine. 🙂
I like your minimalistic combo very much!
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camille says
Such a great post
xoxo
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Monika says
Cute look! And such great news! I know how it is. At the moment I am having problems with my jaw and noone is giving me a definitive answer as to what to do. It is so frustrating, not knowing when it will pass or what it is.
Camilla says
I’m glad you’re okay. And it’s really nice to read you care so much about others that the first thing you thought was about someone who wouldn’t receive such great news as you.
You’re one of my favorite bloggers because you’re really caring person.
Also, I see you’ve switched from Nikon to Canon a long time ago and there’s something bugging my mind: what kind of lens do you use? I always see a big lens on your mirror pics but I can’t figure out which one it is…
Elly says
Thank you for not only sharing the “good life” with your readers. There is no such thing as perfection eventhough we thrive for it constantly. Good to see that people who lighten up other peoples’ lives on the daily (people such as yourself 🙂 ) are brave enough to sometimes give insight on the less light things of live. Because if anything, they teach us to try and look fro the sun as much as possible:) .
Vendy says
Thank god! ♥ Maybe I’m hypersensitive, but I have tears in my eyes now. Thank you for this post. I know it can be hard to be personal on blog, I really appreciate it 🙂
Dixi Wonderland says
You must have been so scared 🙁
I´m so happy that everything is okay 🙂
Lovisa says
So glad to hear everything is alright with you! Great news! I really appreciate your posts, it’s so important to read ‘real life’ stories from a blogger like you. It really makes us as readers feel more connected and close to you, as life it not only about the pretty things in life. So thanks for sharing:)
Marianne says
Tietämättömyys on tosiaan pahin, mutta onneksi tulokset ovat olleet positiivisia uutisia <3
Olet niin oikeassa - elämä on tässä ja nyt ja joka hetkestä pitää nauttia!
Voimia ja jaksamisia sinne! <3
xx
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Michaela says
so glad to hear you’re okay!
I know what it’s like to live in this kind of fear, I had – or was afraid I had – some problems too, of the kind that many women suffer from, but gladly – GLADLY everything was fine then. it’s so important for girls and women our age to care about ourselves, ANYWAY… that’s a whole different story, what I mean is that when it comes to it, health does come first, and it’s just then that you realize how lucky you are. to be okay.
take care, and don’t feel bad about letting yourself be relieved! you have every right to be happy, like you said <3
Milla says
Thanks for sharing it with us, you’re definitely able to help and inspire people with your wise words. Wishing you all the best in life Marianna!
patricia says
great look!!! LOVE IT 😀
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xx
Nhi says
Hey Marianna – I’m glad that it isn’t something serious! 🙂 My father wasn’t so Lucky Two months ago – they Found out that he has cancer 🙁 We all should be thankful as Long we are fine. Have a nice evening <3
Marianna says
Hi Nhi, thank you so much for the comment. All the best for your family. <3 I can only imagine how that feels, one of my best friend survived one a couple years ago, and it was one of the toughest things I've faced.
Joan says
Holy mackerel, what a huge scare. I can only imagine how you felt, how unsure. Really happy for you that the test results came back good! Breathe a sigh of relief and live well; i don’t think anyone can fault you for that. Thanks for sharing this with us. *hug!*
You’re absolutely right, life is now! 🙂 and great outfit as usual 😉
Marianna says
Thank you Joan so much for the lovely words. <3 🙂
Lisa says
Not knowing is the worst!
Thank god everything is ok 🙂
Could you tell which perfums you are currently using?
Any tips?
Leanne says
Wow, I’m so sorry you’ve been burdened with all this worry over the past 8 weeks, it must have been so stressful. I’m so glad to know everything is ok and I will pray for you tonight. I hope you have a good week. xx
Marianna says
Thank you so much Leanne, I appreciate that more than you know. Have a good week you too! x
Joanna says
Oh god, so good to hear that you are alright! ;* wish you all the best 🙂
Marianna says
<3
Olivia says
Love this outfit, totally perfect for fall!! New post // http://www.oliviaschueller.com/?p=628
Kelly says
Thank you so much for sharing this! I especially love and respect your wise perspective on feeling “off” because so many other people don’t hear good news. You have a huge heart! Thank you for being so caring and selfless. You’ve created a beautiful life for yourself and I wish only healthy, happy days for you ahead!
P.S. I’ve been reading your blog for years and am so thankful for it. You are so lovely and inspiring. Thank you. <3
Marianna says
Thank you so much Kelly. <3 I'm almost crying here! 😀 No words, just a huge thank you! x
Aga says
I had the very same feeling a few years back, when I discovered a large lump in my breast while showering. That was the worst night of my life… Luckily, in the morning I managed to book a doctor’s appointment and the ultrasound scan proved “the thing” wasn’t really serious. Definitely a wake-up call for me to take proper care of myself and just live a life! You never know what’s coming up tomorrow…
Glad to see you’re alright girl!
xoxo
Marianna says
I can only imagine, when it comes to health that really stops everything and puts things in different perspective. Thank you Aga for the comment, so happy that it wasn’t anything serious with you either! x
Gabriela says
Oh, thank god you’re ok!! This post was short, but it almost made me cry. The health truly is the moct important thing! Now I just have no words…
But thank you Marianna for all your lovely posts! I think that you’re a great blogger who doesn’t write posts about “nothing”. I don’t write comment on all of your posts but read them all and they inspires me everytime!
Thank you for being such a great blogger♥
Gabriela:)
Marianna says
Thank you Gabriela for those beautiful words, I really appreciate that! <3 Your comment made my whole week! 🙂 x
Eliza says
I’m glad you did that post (also really glad that everything is okay with you).
You said it yourself, everyday shit happens there and people don’t get the good news. Especially in the blogger world, where everything and everyone looks so perfect, it seems weird. Weird, that life can interruped all this.
So thank you for your honesty!
Marianna says
Thank you so much Eliza, that means a lot! 🙂 I thought it’s just right to be honest here, since I’ve always been honest and kept real life a part of this. x
Laura says
Love your jacket !
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Love from Paris
Martyna says
You look amazing! Love your jacket! 🙂
MissVictimized says
Dear Marianna, I’m so happy you’re fine! Thank God everything went well You look amazing in this jacket. X.
Marianna says
Thank you so much! 🙂 x
Olya says
Oh, sweetie, what a challenging time to go through… Yes, not knowing is the worst… And life is so vulnerable :/ Thanks God, all appeared to be fine! Take care! <3
Marianna says
Thank you Olya <3 🙂 That was so kind you to say, and you are right, sometimes you forget how grateful you have to be just for being here. x
Alex says
You look amazing in that dress!
I have a question. In the previous post (My Home) I saw beautiful picture on the wall with zebras. Please could you let me know where is it from?
Marianna says
Desenio.com 🙂 Thank you Alex! x
Katherine says
Congratulations on your amazing news! It is so scary to have to wait, especially for so long for a test result. I had a breast lump scare & surgery at 23 and it was a serious wake-up call.
Here’s to good health and living life to the fullest xx
Diane says
Firstly, so happy that you received good news!!
Second…I thought it was interesting that I just “happen” to tap on your post this evening and actually read it (since I often just love looking at the pictures in blogs), because I just went through the same experience as you!
Just before getting my good news, I seemed to always be hearing stories that did not have a happy ending. So when I got my good news, like you, I just didn’t feel 100% relieved because so many others could not get the good news! I think it’s our tap on the shoulder! I think you were meant to share your story to remind us and yourself to live fully!! If you’ve been holding back on something, this is your reminder to not hold back! Live fully with no regrets! 😀
Marianna says
Thanks so much for sharing that! <3 I like how you think, it really is a reminder! 🙂 x
Elisabetta says
I love yours words.
It’s the same thingh I continue to think.. there is just one life and we must to try to spend it like we want.
I’m italian and here the most part of boy and girls fail to realize what they really want.
I follow you for many years and I would love to have a life like yours; I’d love traveling, seeing new places, to be with friends, instead here is getting worse! Work, work, work (for which they do not reach but which allows me to eat) and no entertainment, and no money!!
Very, very sad!! =(
Virginie says
You look so pretty! Happy you’re alright! You’re so right, we need to stop being afraid, not doing what we love and want, it’s time for a change because life’s too short to be wasted!!
xxxx Virginie